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and you looked anyway

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yes

i was afraid for you so i looked

i don't know more than a name and what he can do. i know that's more than you wanted me to know

i'm sorry for breaking your trust.

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its not
you dont need to be sorry im not mad im

[ terrified, actually, but nate has to feel that already ]

who knows that you know?
even just his name

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oli and jess

oli is how i knew to go to jess
she knew about the bracelet project so i figure it's ok to tell you that

i'm giving both of them the spray and pearls as well
and a bracelet for jess bc she asked for one

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nate
im begging you
please, dont go anywhere near him. please. just

pretend it doesnt exist if you have to

please

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i wont. i know you want to keep me safe

i just need you to understand that i want to keep you safe too
so i can't pretend it doesn't exist if i know you're still involved with this creep

at the very least i need to know you can protect yourself & escape if he goes off

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yeah
ok
fuck

please dont tell anyone else
i know its like
i know that its a lot to ask but i need more time and anyone who knows anything is just in more danger

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i wont

i did ask john for advice but i didn't tell him any names or details

look the one thing is that i feel fucking shitty keeping this from kyle
he loves you and if anything happened to you he would fucking lose it, nick

i wont tell him
but i think you should
i don't think it's fair not to

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kyle can't know
he'd kill him, or die trying

i know its shitty but i cant tell him, not until its done

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when is it gonna be done
how does this end like what's even the exit strategy?

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[ great question...... ]

i'm not telling anyone

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okay reverse this

i'm fucking someone seriously dangerous who's hurt other people we know enough that we're scared to even tell anyone else and i won't let you near it or go to anyone else who might be able to help and i can't even tell you how it's going to end

what do you do

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i know what i'm asking, nate
i know its too much

i'm asking anyway

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i need you to find the exit

nick i wont say anything okay, i love you and i want to do what you want

but if you got hurt because i stayed quiet i literally couldn't live with myself

so find it soon, please

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ive got it under control

when its done i'll tell everyone that should have know from the start, but until then

i have it under control

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ok then so it won't be hard to give me updates.

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too many people already know too much

i shouldn't have asked you for help i'm sorry, i shouldnt have put you in this position in the first place

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no.

you shouldn't be trying to do this alone in the first place

the answer absolutely isn't to double down, you've got to stop pretending like you're protecting us by not telling us you're in trouble

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i still shouldn't have done this

i dont know why i thought i could keep you out of it
i'm sorry nate

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stop please

if you get in trouble then the only place i want to be is in it with you

you don't keep me safe by keeping me out of it. i'm actually very capable of getting into danger myself but at least if we talk about it then i can be there with you

ride or die nick

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ride or die

i love you, so much. I'll never put you in this position again, i promise.
maybe if i'd said something to someone sooner we wouldnt be here now

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i slept with hope while she was still lacking humanity

i'd cursed her, i had faith in it, and i didnt think she wanted to hurt me
and she didnt
at least nothing i didn't want to feel

but i knew it was a risk and i didn't tell anyone at the time

which is to say
you don't always know how deep you might get into something and you don't always make the smart decision in the moment
i've been there too

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[ there's a lot of typing. too much, when all he sends back is ]

after you cursed her?

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yeah.
before she died.

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after she killed michael