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ive got it under control

when its done i'll tell everyone that should have know from the start, but until then

i have it under control

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ok then so it won't be hard to give me updates.

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too many people already know too much

i shouldn't have asked you for help i'm sorry, i shouldnt have put you in this position in the first place

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no.

you shouldn't be trying to do this alone in the first place

the answer absolutely isn't to double down, you've got to stop pretending like you're protecting us by not telling us you're in trouble

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i still shouldn't have done this

i dont know why i thought i could keep you out of it
i'm sorry nate

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stop please

if you get in trouble then the only place i want to be is in it with you

you don't keep me safe by keeping me out of it. i'm actually very capable of getting into danger myself but at least if we talk about it then i can be there with you

ride or die nick

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ride or die

i love you, so much. I'll never put you in this position again, i promise.
maybe if i'd said something to someone sooner we wouldnt be here now

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i slept with hope while she was still lacking humanity

i'd cursed her, i had faith in it, and i didnt think she wanted to hurt me
and she didnt
at least nothing i didn't want to feel

but i knew it was a risk and i didn't tell anyone at the time

which is to say
you don't always know how deep you might get into something and you don't always make the smart decision in the moment
i've been there too

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[ there's a lot of typing. too much, when all he sends back is ]

after you cursed her?

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yeah.
before she died.

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after she killed michael

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yeah, after she killed your friend and compelled caitlin and was living under my curse

after all of that

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[ nick tries to respond. and he tries to respond again, and again, and all the while it hurts more with each attempt. he doesn't even know how to feel. it just hurts. ]

okay

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[ Nate thinks: this is worse than looking for William. He'd said if because he was trying to say he understands, and now he wonders if maybe he shouldn't have said anything. But that would mean consciously keeping a secret from Nick, and he's never done that. He never will do that. So he just says: ]

i'm sorry

in the moment all i was thinking about was the moment

that's not an excuse, it's just how it was. i don't have an excuse.

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i understand

she was your friend. she didnt hurt you.
i get it.

[ after she killed your friend. he can't stop reading it. but his eyes blur and his chest aches, even as he tries to type. ]

you dont have to apologize

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yes i do

she hurt you. i was stupid and i didn't think about that, or about anything else

the last thing i ever want to do is hurt you
and i can feel how much i have
and i'm so sorry. i'm so sorry
you don't have to say it's okay when it's not.

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i dont want it to not be okay, so its okay

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you and me can always be okay

that doesn't mean you can't be angry

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i'm not angry, i'm just

i dont know. i just need a minute

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listen

i'm gonna leave the spray and the pearls in your room in the down house

you can just

nick, i love you so much. i'm so sorry

you know where i'll be.

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i dont want you to leave me alone

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what do you want?

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i dont know

you

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[ That makes him painfully sad. It takes a minute to answer. ]

i haven't gone anywhere

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here