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and you think the scar is what, like

a sign of that?

you had another one after that shit with hellboy

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it's not getting any worse. i already checked, i check all the time, to make sure you know? it's just like idk, a tiny little sliver of messed up in there, i think thats why it didn't heal over

i did, yeah. i was messing with shit i shouldn't have.

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did that one fade or

is it permanent too

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it was in the same spot as my old one
that week was weird though, my hand wasn't scarred when it happened. i didn't even notice at the time

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did he cut you?

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no, i did it. i couldn't have even come close to what he was asking for if i didn't. i mean don't get me wrong he was swinging a giant sword around very threateningly but yeah
the hand was me

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so blood magic again

idk nick i mean where i'm from using your blood to power a spell isn't inherently bad. it doesn't come with any corruption threat

but maybe like
idk we could do a cleansing thing maybe
my magic might affect it where yours can't

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yeah, you can try, i'd like that
i mean i don't think it'll make anything worse

i wonder if you can feel it actually, if you're looking for it.

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i always just feel everything and know it's you

i've never gone looking deeper though

do you want me to try? i mean, you did it for me

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its not like
nice

like obviously but also i feel like i should just point it out just in case

i dont want it to like give u the ick haha

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nothing about you could do that

ok?

nothing ever.

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[ he knows this. he does, but still: ]

promise?

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promise.

it's you.

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ok
i love you

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i love you always

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even when i have tiny secret nasty rot hidden in my palm

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i'm gonna kiss it

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youre so cute it's actually unbelievable

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well if you think that's cute

there's actually something i want to try

when you went in my head, it seemed to help that we were touching, that we kissed

i think we should go further than that. i think we should bond like that, when we're having sex
it'd be like, ultimate intimacy
i can't imagine a way to be closer to you than that

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god
have i told you how smart you are lately? ideas like this
youre a genius, nate hawthorne, you and that big beautiful brain of yours

i dont think i want anyone in my head, but i want you there

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i know the feeling

i wouldn't have trusted anyone else. like when i thought something was wrong with me and i needed to be checked. i know other psychics who've been doing it a long time

but i didn't want them in my head. i only wanted you
i only trusted you
i like the idea of you seeing all those parts of me, like the ones i want to keep away from everyone else. they're for you, it's all for you.

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me too
i want you to see everything

like its not
its not all good but you know that already. i know you won't judge anything you see, i know even the worst of the worst
well i'm pretty sure you know it all already

but there's a hell of a lot of good in there too. i want you to see the way i see you, really.

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you don't have to tell me that there's a lot of good

that's what you're full of

and i know you think there's things that aren't. but those things are part of you too

and i love all of you. all of you, nick

do you know sometimes when you're not at the theatre i touch your plants and i can feel you in them? your magic
your lifeforce
i do it sometimes when i'm anxious and it makes me feel better

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[ hold on, he just needs a minute to process that, because it's just about the most touching thing he's ever read in his life. ]

can i come over
like right now

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as if you ever have to ask

yes please.