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yeah, you can try, i'd like that
i mean i don't think it'll make anything worse

i wonder if you can feel it actually, if you're looking for it.

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i always just feel everything and know it's you

i've never gone looking deeper though

do you want me to try? i mean, you did it for me

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its not like
nice

like obviously but also i feel like i should just point it out just in case

i dont want it to like give u the ick haha

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nothing about you could do that

ok?

nothing ever.

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[ he knows this. he does, but still: ]

promise?

[guylining]

promise.

it's you.

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ok
i love you

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i love you always

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even when i have tiny secret nasty rot hidden in my palm

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i'm gonna kiss it

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youre so cute it's actually unbelievable

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well if you think that's cute

there's actually something i want to try

when you went in my head, it seemed to help that we were touching, that we kissed

i think we should go further than that. i think we should bond like that, when we're having sex
it'd be like, ultimate intimacy
i can't imagine a way to be closer to you than that

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god
have i told you how smart you are lately? ideas like this
youre a genius, nate hawthorne, you and that big beautiful brain of yours

i dont think i want anyone in my head, but i want you there

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i know the feeling

i wouldn't have trusted anyone else. like when i thought something was wrong with me and i needed to be checked. i know other psychics who've been doing it a long time

but i didn't want them in my head. i only wanted you
i only trusted you
i like the idea of you seeing all those parts of me, like the ones i want to keep away from everyone else. they're for you, it's all for you.

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me too
i want you to see everything

like its not
its not all good but you know that already. i know you won't judge anything you see, i know even the worst of the worst
well i'm pretty sure you know it all already

but there's a hell of a lot of good in there too. i want you to see the way i see you, really.

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you don't have to tell me that there's a lot of good

that's what you're full of

and i know you think there's things that aren't. but those things are part of you too

and i love all of you. all of you, nick

do you know sometimes when you're not at the theatre i touch your plants and i can feel you in them? your magic
your lifeforce
i do it sometimes when i'm anxious and it makes me feel better

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[ hold on, he just needs a minute to process that, because it's just about the most touching thing he's ever read in his life. ]

can i come over
like right now

[guylining]

as if you ever have to ask

yes please.

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[ that's all the warning that nate gets before a portal is opening up not too far away from wherever nate happens to be. and he might brag about the skill involved in precision tracking and portalling normally, but nick is far too busy stepping through in a hurry to catch hold of nate's face, and press a kiss theere by way of a greeting. ]

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[ Nate turns, and reaches to grab hold of him and pull him close even as Nick is reaching for him. He kisses him just as urgently, face tipping down as he leans into him. One arm wraps around him and the other hand pushes up into his hair.

Hi, babe.

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I love you.

[ like it's some kind of revelation, like they don't say it to each other almost every time they speak. nick says it like it's a revelation, half-mumbled into the kiss that he has no real intention of pulling away from. ]

Every time I think I can't love you more, you just--you say shit like that, and...I love you.

[guylining]

[ Nate smiles, and it turns into a soft laugh against Nick's neck. He kisses his jaw, and then wraps him up into a very tight hug. ]

It's just stuff that's true. You don't know how much...the feel of you just makes me feel better. Like it's easier to breathe around you.

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[ nick's arms wind around nate's neck, latched on just as tight as he huffs out a soft exhale. the thing is, he knows it's true, he can feel how true it is. there's that soft background hum that nick knows to be nate, always there, and nick knows exactly how something seems to unknot when they're together. because it's exactly the same for him. he feels it now, that faint relief that happens just by virtue of being near nate. ]

I always figured...I don't know, that there'd always be something I had to hide. Some part of me, I'm not--I'm not easy to love, but you just...you make it look so easy, Nate.

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Hey, that's not true.

[ Nate frowns a little, leaning back enough so he can see Nick's eyes. ]

You're so easy to love. I did it without even meaning to.

[ Then he reaches around to snag Nick's hand, and brings it up so he can kiss his scarred palm just like he said he would. He lays his cheek against that palm, after. ]

Everything about you is just...like you're exactly what I need. I'm happy just being around you.

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I think you're a little biased.

[ but he smiles all the same, wiggling his fingers gently in nate's grip. not to work it free, just to feel his hand move lightly against nate's cheek. ]

I've never felt like too much for you, y'know? Like, God, I worry about what everyone thinks about me so much, all of the time, I want to be the perfect person for everyone, all of the time. But you...I don't know. I always felt like I could just be me. I feel like I know who 'me' is, when I'm with you.