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did he cut you?

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no, i did it. i couldn't have even come close to what he was asking for if i didn't. i mean don't get me wrong he was swinging a giant sword around very threateningly but yeah
the hand was me

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so blood magic again

idk nick i mean where i'm from using your blood to power a spell isn't inherently bad. it doesn't come with any corruption threat

but maybe like
idk we could do a cleansing thing maybe
my magic might affect it where yours can't

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yeah, you can try, i'd like that
i mean i don't think it'll make anything worse

i wonder if you can feel it actually, if you're looking for it.

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i always just feel everything and know it's you

i've never gone looking deeper though

do you want me to try? i mean, you did it for me

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its not like
nice

like obviously but also i feel like i should just point it out just in case

i dont want it to like give u the ick haha

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nothing about you could do that

ok?

nothing ever.

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[ he knows this. he does, but still: ]

promise?

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promise.

it's you.

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ok
i love you

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i love you always

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even when i have tiny secret nasty rot hidden in my palm

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i'm gonna kiss it

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youre so cute it's actually unbelievable

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well if you think that's cute

there's actually something i want to try

when you went in my head, it seemed to help that we were touching, that we kissed

i think we should go further than that. i think we should bond like that, when we're having sex
it'd be like, ultimate intimacy
i can't imagine a way to be closer to you than that

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god
have i told you how smart you are lately? ideas like this
youre a genius, nate hawthorne, you and that big beautiful brain of yours

i dont think i want anyone in my head, but i want you there

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i know the feeling

i wouldn't have trusted anyone else. like when i thought something was wrong with me and i needed to be checked. i know other psychics who've been doing it a long time

but i didn't want them in my head. i only wanted you
i only trusted you
i like the idea of you seeing all those parts of me, like the ones i want to keep away from everyone else. they're for you, it's all for you.

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me too
i want you to see everything

like its not
its not all good but you know that already. i know you won't judge anything you see, i know even the worst of the worst
well i'm pretty sure you know it all already

but there's a hell of a lot of good in there too. i want you to see the way i see you, really.

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you don't have to tell me that there's a lot of good

that's what you're full of

and i know you think there's things that aren't. but those things are part of you too

and i love all of you. all of you, nick

do you know sometimes when you're not at the theatre i touch your plants and i can feel you in them? your magic
your lifeforce
i do it sometimes when i'm anxious and it makes me feel better

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[ hold on, he just needs a minute to process that, because it's just about the most touching thing he's ever read in his life. ]

can i come over
like right now

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as if you ever have to ask

yes please.

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[ that's all the warning that nate gets before a portal is opening up not too far away from wherever nate happens to be. and he might brag about the skill involved in precision tracking and portalling normally, but nick is far too busy stepping through in a hurry to catch hold of nate's face, and press a kiss theere by way of a greeting. ]

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[ Nate turns, and reaches to grab hold of him and pull him close even as Nick is reaching for him. He kisses him just as urgently, face tipping down as he leans into him. One arm wraps around him and the other hand pushes up into his hair.

Hi, babe.

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I love you.

[ like it's some kind of revelation, like they don't say it to each other almost every time they speak. nick says it like it's a revelation, half-mumbled into the kiss that he has no real intention of pulling away from. ]

Every time I think I can't love you more, you just--you say shit like that, and...I love you.

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[ Nate smiles, and it turns into a soft laugh against Nick's neck. He kisses his jaw, and then wraps him up into a very tight hug. ]

It's just stuff that's true. You don't know how much...the feel of you just makes me feel better. Like it's easier to breathe around you.