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[unfriendlygreen]

I DID PROVIDE NEW BAIT!

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too related ur not gonna distract me if we're basically staying on topic
do u feel like ur gonna ~die when u look in his eyes

[unfriendlygreen]

I like looking at them, actually. I just like him, it's not that serious.

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im pretty sure someone gave u some very gr8 advice along those exact lines actually
someone very smart + intelligent + fantastic at advice + totally handsome w a great personality

[unfriendlygreen]

You have known me long enough to be aware I do not Enjoy Things.

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the power is in ur hands
it's not the worst thing in the world u know, having a feeling

[unfriendlygreen]

it's new and i have no idea of what to do with it.

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u don't have to do anything with it
just have ur crush and have fun + like enjoy how it makes u feel or whatever u don't even have to tell him
it's that easy trust

[unfriendlygreen]

I told him I liked him as soon as I realized I did. I'm not a child.

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what like right away
u just told him?
thats so fucking weird

[unfriendlygreen]

I kissed him too.

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did u feel like u were gonna break out in hives?

[unfriendlygreen]

YES. Is that normal?

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i mean i assume so that's how i felt

[unfriendlygreen]

did you break out in hives?

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no but i almost bolted
did u?

[unfriendlygreen]

of course not, i was very smooth.

[ nick doesn't need to know what a huge lie that is. ]

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( nick absolutely already knows what a huge lie that is )

do u regret it? telling him, i mean

[unfriendlygreen]

not in the least. I loathe the awkward dancing around each other, wondering if a look or a touch means more than it does, it's excruciating.

This is better. He knows where I stand and I have no expectations, so anything happening at all is a welcome surprise.

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do u not feel like u have to second guess everything now tho
like stuff that was just something normal u did feeling all like
more loaded bc they know??

[unfriendlygreen]

I told him maybe an hour after I first met him. So no, I haven't had to second guess anything because he's known the whole time.

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lol
how do u even do that
that's actually insane

[unfriendlygreen]

I know myself very well and I saw no point in waiting. How is that any worse than having BDSM sessions with a stranger?

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mmm i am intensely more comfortable having BDSM sessions w strangers than telling an actual whole person i have feelings for them
that's not even a question

( you're talking about nick now ragnor, keep up )

[unfriendlygreen]

i can understand it being embarrassing if you're not sure your feelings are reciprocated.

[ ragnor still has no idea, but he didn't want his pining to involve a side of 'maybe if i told him he'd tell me he likes me back' ]

but if you're giving him puppy eyes and he's giving them to you back and no one says anything, then keeping it quiet is absolutely ridiculous.