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if everything was that simple no one would ever have any problems
i don't try to be like this i just don't know how to be anything else

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You didn't shut me out. You felt the impulse, you were close to doing it, and you decided not to.

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still thinking about it tbh

( stop making sense :| )

its like not even a thing this is so ahead of myself anyway
he got me a gift. it was really sweet.

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he's a very sweet man.

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very
he won't let me go and see him. it's stupid.

( hence this whole moody little tantrum )

[unfriendlygreen]

he wants to protect you the only way he can. let him.

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im starting to feel like a broken record but i really dont need as much protecting as everyone seems to think i do

[unfriendlygreen]

take a minute to try to look it from the outside. this is a very protective man who failed to protect his recently contracted submissive, was then very immediately and publicly exposed, and then jailed before he had any time to comfort the submissive that, in his perception, he already failed once.

could it be perhaps, that this is less about you than you think it is?

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( nick responds exactly as well as expected, which is to say he immediately switches his device off and does not respond at all.

or at least he doesn't until a good hour later, after he's gone through a whole range of emotions and come out the other side maybe...slightly more reasonable. )

well when you put it like that i guess it makes sense

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[ ragnor has learned to expect nick to react poorly to any kind of call-out, the surprise here is that it only takes him an hour to circle back. ]

i don't know how much of it is the city's psychological pressure, but dominants do tend to get it into their heads that they are responsible for their submissives' well-being.

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i mean
it's not his fault
i just don't know how to actually convince him that it isn't

[unfriendlygreen]

sometimes beating people over the head with facts work, and sometimes your best option is to be there and let them work through it on their own.

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i guess. it just sucks
i'm pretty sure he's like convinced he's going to hurt me or some shit now
i dont know how to get that out of his head either

its been a long week

[unfriendlygreen]

if he's determined not to hurt you and you are determined not to push him away, it will be fine.

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that is some power of love horseshit right there

but like yeah. probably. ugh.

[unfriendlygreen]

I have managed to maintain relationships for hundreds of years. I like to think I know a thing or two.

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i feel like these problems are probably not universal but i suppose u can occasionally be right about things some of the time

the whole thing still sucks for like 236747 reasons tho

[unfriendlygreen]

You can have a party once he's out. I'll make Magnus decorate, he has a taste for it.

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idk if there'll be a lot of celebration mood going around
he has like
an exam
he has to pass at the end of realignment

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will he need subs for this?

[ is this going to be posted to the network too? he certainly hopes not. ]

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obviously, this place is a cosmic joke

there's a lot of arguing happening about this.

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You want to be there and he doesn't?

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if kyle has a preference he's not saying it

michael thinks it should be him bc idk nobility/falling on his sword/that kind of bullshit

[unfriendlygreen]

Are you having sex with Michael? If you are, go together. If you're not, take turns.

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i'm not, and i said that already
i mean christ it's like 12 fucking hours long

but if it ends up on the network like. at least my shit is already out there, whats another one