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[chrisisofaith]

you're as much a sap as caleb

don't be a prick. 'hey i know i fucked up wildly and you owe me nothing, but i'd like to ask for patience and a chance to make it right. please tell me where to start, this is difficult for me and i'll need to take it piece by piece, so if you could give me one piece to start, i'd appreciate it.'

you're welcome

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just telling it as i see it

i'm pretty sure if i was a better person i'd leave. let people heal without having to deal with me getting over everything on top of that.

[chrisisofaith]

your people love you. they want to heal with you, not in spite of you.

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if you love someone and they hurt you, you' be well within your rights to deal with your own hurt and not their boatload of problems

[chrisisofaith]

you would
if that's what they want, you respect that
i repeat
have
you
asked
them

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not really

i'm going to

[chrisisofaith]

good. gotta start somewhere.

listen. you didn't hurt me any and i know i'm not them, but i'm here for you too, as you need. you're one of my people. i'm in your corner.

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its like

it means a lot. i appreciate it. i'm like
i don't know. things are hard rn

[chrisisofaith]

i know and likely will be for a while
don’t sink under
don’t lose yourself
come up for air or ask for distractions or godsforbid help
but there are rafts in the water for you, lovely

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i think
sometimes

i think im already sunk and everyones fighting a losing battle trying to get me back
sometimes it feels too late

[chrisisofaith]

yeah?

alright
do you like it down there?

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not really

but sometimes a lost cause is just a lost cause

[chrisisofaith]

i have good news for you
not wanting to be down there means you’re not a lost cause

start swimming up nicky
i’ve even got a spell for walking on water, so ill meet you there

i’m as stubborn as you are sad, so try me on this

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i want to
at least i think i want to i just like

i'm so tired

[chrisisofaith]

so take a breath, rest, but don’t give up

just try

the rest will come

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maybe

god. i don't know when things got this bad. i didnt even realize.

[chrisisofaith]

wish i had answer for you, but i can guess, if it was easy to see, it wouldn’t consume so wholly

but you see it now that’s a start

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sorry
i know youre like not a therapist you can bill me for these hours anyway i dont mind

[chrisisofaith]

no I’m a cleric it’s the same thing
spiritual leader
and also an actual leader
so thanks for the practice

what do you need?
not like in general
right now

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i dont know
company
or a distraction
or to be so out of it i cant think at all

but i'd be shit company right now

[chrisisofaith]

too bad, my hand seems to be empty. might need something to fill it. maybe another hand
can i borrow yours?

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i guess that'd probably be alright

[chrisisofaith]

where are you? i’ll be there in a flash

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in the down. i can come to you tho. i'm very good at portalling now.

[ he does still helpfully send the address of the house he's languishing in all the same though, the one in the down that's conveniently located right next door to Nate's ]

[chrisisofaith]

[He’s very familiar with Nate’s address, at least with both Nate and Caleb living there, it’s one of the robes he chooses to perch on when homesickness rattles through him.]

no i’m invading your space, let me invade. i’ll be there soon

[He really isn’t that far and he’d already had his wings out for the roof he’d been drinking on. He lands on Nick’s roof and knocks on the shingles.]

knock knock come on up