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in mine, yes. he's able to force people to tell their secrets even if they say no
he did it to a friend of mine, because he had a magic thing with him
chris is adamant that he would accept a no, if it came from chris. but that's assuming jon is as honourable as chris thinks he is.
so i was coming here to ask you not to tell chris, if you knew where the creatures came from. because i can't trust that it won't get back to jon through him. i wish i could, but i can't.
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'he'll make other people but he won't make me' doesnt fill me w confidence
i won't say anything about them to chris
i guess its lucky he's not really all that interested in them
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thanks, nick.
i don't like putting you in that position, i'm sorry.
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honestly, i think chris would too
for the record though, i wouldn't tell anyone. no matter who asked. it's not my secret to share
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as in the friend who jon mind-raped
also he thinks i'm full of myself for thinking jon still gives a shit, which he might not, but like. he did before, and i'm just assuming nothing's changed
it's honestly just
i'm too tired for this
but thank you. i appreciate it, more than you know
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he has
even if he's not doing it to chris its still a thing he can do. does do.
idk. at least he can't come in the theatre.
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like i'm serious i'm too tired for this
i'm glad you can see where i'm coming from
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keep on happening.
i love you. i'm with you
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like i don't know where this random drama keeps coming from honestly
it does remind me why i was so fucked up before i went coma. there was just so much, all happening at once
one thing after another
i love you too, you know.
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i know theres like, a whole lifes worth of shit youve got too now but like
are you still like
where you were before the coma shit?
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i mean honestly
like i was trapped in hell, i've literally been running for my life for, i don't know how long
i was tortured for, also i don't know how long. i just kept going
and then the one person who kept me somewhat sane through that was consumed in front of me and then i woke up here
i don't know whether i'm coming or going
but the whole thing where i was so stuck on being attacked, on almost dying. on actually dying
it all seems small
because i've lived through worse and still come out of it
does that make sense
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everything that happened here must feel like so long ago, even on top of everything that happened to you its got to put things in like
perspective i guess
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i don't care so much that i died anymore
i remember caring about it
but in ineroth's realm, it got to the point where i honestly didn't think i'd get out alive. i was more worried about getting thorn out. and freeing as many as i could, to stop ineroth from getting more powerful
my own life didn't really matter anymore
i still sort of feel that way. what's going to happen will happen
death is very definitively not the end, anyway. i've seen the truth of that
i'm not afraid of it.
i just want to do what good i can while i'm still living, i think that's what matters.
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i do get what you're saying i do but like
your life does matter. you matter. you're not just the sum of your parts and actions
i get that you want to do good i really do but you dont have to sacrifice yourself to do it
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i guess we'll see, someday.
i'm not out to throw my life away or anything. if i can find a way to beat this thing and somehow still come out the other end to drink daiquiris and put on magic shows again, believe me i will