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not really

i mean honestly
like i was trapped in hell, i've literally been running for my life for, i don't know how long
i was tortured for, also i don't know how long. i just kept going
and then the one person who kept me somewhat sane through that was consumed in front of me and then i woke up here

i don't know whether i'm coming or going
but the whole thing where i was so stuck on being attacked, on almost dying. on actually dying
it all seems small
because i've lived through worse and still come out of it

does that make sense

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yeah, it makes sense

everything that happened here must feel like so long ago, even on top of everything that happened to you its got to put things in like
perspective i guess

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something like that.
i don't care so much that i died anymore
i remember caring about it

but in ineroth's realm, it got to the point where i honestly didn't think i'd get out alive. i was more worried about getting thorn out. and freeing as many as i could, to stop ineroth from getting more powerful
my own life didn't really matter anymore

i still sort of feel that way. what's going to happen will happen
death is very definitively not the end, anyway. i've seen the truth of that
i'm not afraid of it.
i just want to do what good i can while i'm still living, i think that's what matters.

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ok

i do get what you're saying i do but like

your life does matter. you matter. you're not just the sum of your parts and actions
i get that you want to do good i really do but you dont have to sacrifice yourself to do it

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i hope not
i guess we'll see, someday.

i'm not out to throw my life away or anything. if i can find a way to beat this thing and somehow still come out the other end to drink daiquiris and put on magic shows again, believe me i will