extent | duplicitynet

there's no justice unless we make it

i hate the thought of killing anyone
like i literally hate it, it gives me hives

but you 100% did the right thing and i'll fuck up that arsehole's brain a thousand times over before i let you get punished for it i stg

idc frankly if that makes me immoral
i'm not wrong.

its just
messy, and i'm sure it never used to be. or i never thought it was, i guess

i dont think youre wrong, though. you're like

you're forgiving, and fair, and one of the best people i know
i'm pretty sure if you say someone deserves hell then that's exactly what they deserve. i mean i've only really heard stories about that roman guy, but none of them are good

i sent him a mirror that makes him see the pain he's caused other people on his own face

seems like justice to me

but i'll be real it also just feels good to be able to do something about all the shit that happens here
even if it isn't much

thats very fairytale
and also probably only half of what he deserves

do you ever like
worry about what this place is doing to us. even if we go back with our minds wiped or whatever the fuck happens, these sorts of changes
theyre like scarred into our souls

i dunno

if i take any level of scarring from this place it might stop me walking into an early grave bc i definitely would've

i hate the thought of losing it all

even the bad shit

i don't want to go back to what i was

i'm pretty sure when i told you i didn't want to go back to what i was outside of here, you told me there's every chance that i find my way to being the same person even without this city guiding me there

half the time i'm convinced this isn't even happening to us
i dont know

the good shit still outweighs the bad

ok i did tell you that, but

like i was summoning demons and casting my soul out of my body. i was doing stupid shit and i halfway knew it and still did it for the rush

the good does outweigh the bad
there's just been a lot of bad recently and
look if it's not real then none of the good is real either, you and me aren't real
and i can't believe that, so

yeah
but i'm doing dumb shit too, and if there's better for me there's definitely better for you

me and you are real, i know that.

even if none of this is real, if it's a simulation or we're...i dont know clones, or its some mass shared hallucination. we're real. i'm still going to find you. even if i have to pull worlds apart to do it.