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i dunno

if i take any level of scarring from this place it might stop me walking into an early grave bc i definitely would've

i hate the thought of losing it all

even the bad shit

i don't want to go back to what i was

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i'm pretty sure when i told you i didn't want to go back to what i was outside of here, you told me there's every chance that i find my way to being the same person even without this city guiding me there

half the time i'm convinced this isn't even happening to us
i dont know

the good shit still outweighs the bad

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ok i did tell you that, but

like i was summoning demons and casting my soul out of my body. i was doing stupid shit and i halfway knew it and still did it for the rush

the good does outweigh the bad
there's just been a lot of bad recently and
look if it's not real then none of the good is real either, you and me aren't real
and i can't believe that, so

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yeah
but i'm doing dumb shit too, and if there's better for me there's definitely better for you

me and you are real, i know that.

even if none of this is real, if it's a simulation or we're...i dont know clones, or its some mass shared hallucination. we're real. i'm still going to find you. even if i have to pull worlds apart to do it.

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you sound like me

and you're right, we have to find each other
it wouldn't make sense if we didn't

hey are you busy tonight

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well that's because i learned from the best

for you? free as a bird

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can we go somewhere

like idk a hotel or something, just us

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do you prefer nice or private?

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private, I don't like fancy anyway

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i thought as much
there's a place in the down, a little way out. kind of shitty but it's not full kink hotel so i like it

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sounds perfect

i don't even want to go to insane kink levels or whatever i mostly just wanna wake up with you

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i want that too

we could get like pizza or something and eat it in bed

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y e s

and then like lay together and curl up and watch some stupid movie, idec what it is i just want to be holding you for a while

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honestly i cant think of anything i want more rn
how soon can you be ready?

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like i'm p much ready right now

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lets go then
i'll even put my phone on silent

just me and you, for a while. it sounds perfect

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yeah it does

i'll let caleb know and come meet you

hey thanks. i think i kinda need it

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dont thank me, i think I need this as much as you do

meet me outside the elevator?

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yeah. i'll be right there

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give me like
15 to check in
I'll be right with you 💛

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np i'm already here

i love you

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[ it's more like ten in the end with the way nick rushes through the process, a bag slung over his shoulder as he blurts out half-distracted answers and pushes his way out of the elevators. how could he waste time, when he knows what--who is waiting for him.

nick steps out, glances out either side, but it's not hard at all to find nate. and when he does, nick is quick to meet him with a kiss and an arm looped around his neck. ]

I love you. Hi.

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[ Not really known for his patience, Nate pushes his way through the crowd at the elevator and cranes his neck around other people, trying to see Nick. Finally he's there, and he pushes through all the more to finally catch him up in a cuddle. His head drops against Nick's neck, and a sigh leaks out over his skin. Then he kisses him, eagerly and then more softly, hands brushing his ever longer hair out of his eyes. ]

Hi. Let's absolutely get out of here.

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I think this might just be your best idea yet.

[ he's always a bit tired these days, a little worn thin, a little sad. it's the sort of thing that's always in the background, thrumming away quietly. but in the moments like this, with his arms around nate and nate's lips on his, it's about as far from that sadness as he ever gets. nick's hand finds one of nate's, grips tight, and even if he takes a step away from the direction of the elevator, he still stays very close to nate. ]

Come on, let's get away from the crowd. I'll portal us there.

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[ Nate's head gets messy sometimes. It's a tangle right now, has been since he met Hellboy one night and woke up a week later. It's the kind of tangle where he's never sure how any given day is going to be, whether he'll be calm or panicked, whether he'll want to bury it in work or drink it all away.

The thing is when he's not with Nick, he forgets how easy it feels. How warm it is, how good and right. It's like letting out a breath he's been holding or untying a knot in his mind. The tangle is still there but it matters less. Everything that seemed complicated before now seems simple. As simple as holding Nick's hand and letting him lead him away.

Nick can portal now. He grins and ducks his head, pleased by it. ]

Okay.

[ He keeps hold of them as they step clear, leaving the elevator crowd to deal with themselves. There's a bag slung over Nate's shoulder, though it's not that full. ]

You've been here before? Will they let Poppet come?