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well
its

i havent seen him still
so thats good

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but he's still like
out there
nothing's happened yet

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yeah

oli's done in 3 weeks
i don't care if we wipe his brain so hard he's drooling for the rest of his life after that tbh

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how is oli
is he ok
has w been bothering him

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tbh i dont think he'd tell me if he had, now

he said william didn't like. really pull shit w him while they were playing house but idk since shit hit the fan

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he told me some shit that he didn't seem to think was a big deal bc william stopped when he asked him to but like

it's the kind of shit where you get consent first

so like. #doubt on that front

are you ok
is everything ok at home


cause like you've been next door a lot and while that's like my favourite state of affairs it did worry me a little bit

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yeah he said something happened but he wouldnt like. elaborate. and idk i'm not exactly in the position to push on talking abt shit rn so.

im like
idk
giving people space rn i guess i don't know
everythings just fucked and i dont know how i'm supposed to fix it

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idk if not talking to anyone is really the best way to make up for not talking to anyone

which
is i guess my answer to both of those points

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i cant really blame anyone if i'm not their favorite person rn can i

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you're mine.

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:(
i love you

i'm sorry things are like
fucking all over the place rn

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things are always all over the place here idc about that

i just care about you
i love you too

lmk if i can do anything

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i will
im just like

i'm really glad i have you, nate

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me too.

you know you can come hang with me and caleb, you don't have to stay next door by yourself

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maybe i'll come round

idk i know it doesnt totally make sense, but i feel like i shouldnt
be having a good time rn?
i dont know

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you don't deserve to be punished

i mean you got kidnapped by a bloody demon is that not punishment enough?

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its not punishment its just like

reflection idk
i dont know how to fix anything

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i don't either

but i think you start by talking to them

otherwise you won't know what's fixable and what isn't

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thats what chris said
and youre both pretty smart. hell of a lot smarter than me
idk maybe there's something to that

i just dont want to make things...worse, i guess.

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what is it you're afraid they'll say?

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idk
maybe i'm not worth the effort
and if i push too soon theyll realize that

but if everyone has space and time + they kinda forget like how. difficult it is dealing with me, maybe it wont be so hard

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ok but like

if the thing that upset them was that you kept secrets then i guess i don't see how avoiding them is gonna make that any better

cause you're still like. doing the thing then
you know?

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maybe. i don't know. maybe space makes it worse.
i just know i can't fuck this up. the stakes are like
impossible

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they're not. you're talking about people who love you, nick

the main thing they're gonna care about is that you're safe

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even people who love me are allowed to run out of patience it's not unconditional


sorry im not trying to like convince u im just
im scared