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i don't either

but i think you start by talking to them

otherwise you won't know what's fixable and what isn't

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thats what chris said
and youre both pretty smart. hell of a lot smarter than me
idk maybe there's something to that

i just dont want to make things...worse, i guess.

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what is it you're afraid they'll say?

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idk
maybe i'm not worth the effort
and if i push too soon theyll realize that

but if everyone has space and time + they kinda forget like how. difficult it is dealing with me, maybe it wont be so hard

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ok but like

if the thing that upset them was that you kept secrets then i guess i don't see how avoiding them is gonna make that any better

cause you're still like. doing the thing then
you know?

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maybe. i don't know. maybe space makes it worse.
i just know i can't fuck this up. the stakes are like
impossible

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they're not. you're talking about people who love you, nick

the main thing they're gonna care about is that you're safe

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even people who love me are allowed to run out of patience it's not unconditional


sorry im not trying to like convince u im just
im scared

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i hope you're wrong

i mean i know kyle
i think you're wrong. with him anyway

but you know i know what it's like to deal with the conditions not being met, so.
i'm just gonna hope
and tell you i think you should talk to them

your choice though, i'm here for you either way

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i hope im not right. god, i want to be wrong.

i love you, so much. i know you know, but i just
want to tell you again

i think i would have lost my mind completely if it werent for you

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i do know
i still never get tired of hearing it

i love you too. i'm always here, it doesn't matter what's going on. you've got me.