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[drmcsexy]

I'm just not up for working out visitation, and having to see you and burst into tears and then have to explain to Cullen why I'm crying.

Guess you're just stuck with me then.

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chester's too fragile for a custody battle

for the record i'll never be sad about being stuck with you. ever

[drmcsexy]

Honestly, I never thought you were.
Uncertain and unsure because of other things, but not sad.

You know that if we can find a way to work through things, that's what I always want to do. Right?

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yeah, i know that

i think that um
i know itd be easier to just feel like shit and throw in the towel with everyone and crawl off to some hole and tell myself its fine because its what i deserve but like

i dont want to do that. this means too much to me to do that. you mean too much to me

sorry thats a little heavy for a ha ha conversation. but i want you to know.
as long as there's any part of you that wants us to work, i want to do what i have to, to fix it

[drmcsexy]

Unless you ever tell me that you don't want me anymore, I will always look for you.
Even if you crawl away and hide.

Because you do mean so much to me, Nick. I haven't hidden that for a long time.

Please, don't be. I need to talk about these things. I just haven't wanted to push you too hard while you're coping with everything you've been through.

Because I needed to know that. I need to know where we stand.
Because I do want us to work, Nick. I always have, and I'm not giving up on that just because things get rough.