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@nate

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[ Empathy links mean unfortunate things in situations like this. There's a flare of awful panic, which gradually distills into anxious worry, and then something like dread, over the course of about a half hour. This text comes afterwards, when it's settled to something less defined and more of just a general upset. ]

anna disappeared in the night
you probably got feedback from me and that's why
sorry if it woke you
i'll be in work ok?

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( it's hard to tell sometimes, the longer they stay muddled up together, whether the feelings are coming from nick or nate. easier, maybe, when nick wasn't prone to as many random bouts of panic, but tonight he just sits in bed, a little anxious and a little confused, until the message comes through.

well, that makes sense now.

fuck. )

i can cover you, if you need time.

i'm sorry.

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me too

[ He keeps thinking, if he has just gotten that portals spell right, he could've fixed this. Immediately. And now there's nothing that he can do, no hope that he ever could. Only the very distant, guilty, terrible thought that they might bring her back again themselves. ]

no we made those tattoos together
i have to do them
and the bacchanal, we made all those plans

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you can still do all of those things, just

take tomorrow. today, whatever it is. just a little bit of time.
i'll help you keep those things going if that's what you want to do.

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this is such shit

i was supposed to be able to fix this

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do you want to try again?

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yes

but i don't have any different idea to try

and i don't want to get everyone in trouble again

besides doing the same spell would just yield the same results and risk all of our sanity again, there isn't any point

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maybe we went too big last time
like throwing everything we had at it

maybe
i don't know, we don't try and brute force it. there's got to be a boundary or barrier or something?
maybe we try to go in quieter. find a gap not rip a hole
does that make sense?

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yeah

yeah, maybe. maybe we could do a spell to try and feel out the boundary
find anywhere it might be weaker

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yeah
cause we dont need to get everyone in or out right? just one person, to see if it can be done, and then we work from there

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yeah
yes. just one, bc that would prove it could be done

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ok
so let's work on that

but not today

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ok

ok. yeah, not today. i'll stay home

if you're sure
are you sure?
we still haven't replaced henry

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its fine, i'll just leave the lab shit for later in the week and focus on the selling shit

its one day, nate, i promise the place won't fall apart

take the time, do what you need to do. and if you need more we can figure out a solution to that too, but for now
a day.

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okay


thank you


i love you, you know.

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i love you too.

i know this is going to suck, no matter what. so whatever i can do to make it easier, i'll do it.

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i just miss her
like already

when i got the call she was gone i went in her room and the 3 dogs thought i was her
they keep looking out the window and every time theres a sound they run out to see if it's her
and then they bark their bloody brains out when it's not

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i know
this is going to hurt for a while. i wish it didn't.

you dont deserve this.