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@nate

[guylining]

hey so how was the end of violent delights are you still like

upright??

also just
i love you.
by the way.

<3

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i love you :)

im still standing, somehow. if we ever need to know what my endurance is like for some reason, i think i can definitively say 3 days of constant magic is my limit
but i had a really good time

[guylining]

that's honestly impressive

are you still like shattered? did you stay the full time? it seemed crazy intense and i only saw like day one

[extent]

yeah, i stayed to the end
it was yknow, a lot. but like thats why i liked it. no thoughts head empty etc

but holy shit yeah im wiped. i havent even tried healing something yet i just slept for like a day straight

[guylining]

i mean if you want some v gentle aftercare i can heal you?

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you dont need to, there's nothing like yknow. drastic that needs fixing now

but if you want to, on the other hand, i think thatd be nice

[guylining]

are you seriously asking if i want to cuddle you

absolutely i do

besides i want to hear all about it!

[extent]

😌 i think i can do that

[guylining]

ok come and let me kiss everything better

you know i felt like
a haze from you
it was blissful, like you just weren't thinking anymore

most relaxed i've felt you in months

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i havent tried portalling yet promise youll catch me if i fall?

honestly i didnt think it was going to actually like
get me out of my head as much as it did
i didnt think it would work

[guylining]

nick i'll always catch you, babe

it definitely works like
everyone has their own thing, but
3 days of rough sex? i'd be worried if it didn't put you out of your head

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idk i sort of thought maybe i'd be too in my head to like
let go


anyway where are u i wanna kiss you and tell you all this to your face

[guylining]

on my bed in my bedroom, just waiting for you

i can do the portal if you're wiped?

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i'll do it, i wanna see where i'm at, just get ur catching arms ready ;)

[ the portal opens more or less right after nick hits send, and it all works more or less as expected. the only difference is how tired looks as he steps through, in a loose fitting shirt and sweats that hang off his hips. there's a bandage wrapped around one of his wrists, the other ringed with scraped bruises. connect-the-dot bites and bruises dot along his throat down to his collarbone, and there's more hidden under the shirt yet to be seen, but nick looks happy enough as he collapses more or less face first into nate's bed. ]

Are all my limbs still attached? [ he turns his head out of the mattress to look at nate, grinning a little as he holds his hand out. ] Hi.

[guylining]

[ Nick appears, looking like he's been in several fights, but with an expression that matches that blissed out vibe Nate's been getting from him.

He grins, and scoots up against him to gather him up. Nate hasn't bothered with a t-shirt and just has some loose-fitting shorts on. His fingers trace Nick's arms, and he dips his head to kiss his cheek. ]

More or less. You look happy. Like chill and happy.

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I feel--good, like really good.

[ he hasn't ached like this in as long as he can remember, too used to just healing away any discomforts almost as quickly as they occur. nick is quick to twist into nate's side, quicker to turn his head and steal a kiss. ]

I didn't realise how much I needed out of my own head, I guess.

[guylining]

[ Nate curves into him, kissing him softly. His hand comes up to cup his jaw. ]

It happens. There's a lot going on.

[ Nate nudges close. ]

I don't want to heal anything that's feeling good.

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It all feels good.

[ sort of. more accurate might be that nick still feels good, regardless of the fact that it's a little uncomfortable to lie on his stomach, of the throb in his wrist, or the stinging reminders any time he stretches a little too much.

he tips his head into the touch, presses his cheek against nate's palm and smiles all the more for the simple touch. it's not like there hasn't been any gentle touches over the last few days, there was plenty of affection even amongst the violence, but after the intensity of the party he's craving exactly this more than ever. just nate, just him, no frills or fuss. ]

I don't need to keep any of it. Start wherever you like.

[guylining]

Okay.

[ Nate smiles down at him. He has a plan for this. With his head still dipped against Nick, he whispers a soft spell, and then gently lifts Nick's arm. He unwraps the bandage, and then gently kisses Nick's wrist. The spell starts to work, gently easing swelling and bruising and straining.

He moves up Nick's arm, touching light kisses to every bruise and blemish, and the spell sets in everywhere that he places a kiss. His hands slide up Nick's back, and he presses closer. ]

How's that feel?

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[ he likes it precisely because it doesn't feel like nick's particular brand of healing. it's different, it's nate, as distinctive as a fingerprint. nick watches, a captive audience for the trail of kisses as the clean cut at his wrist knits back together, as the bruises and scrapes fade like they were never there at all. ]

Feels good. It feels like you.

[ he just has to take advantage of nate moving up close to him again to kiss him, nick can't not. it's just too easy to press his lips to nate's, and to sigh, satisfied, against his mouth. ]

[guylining]

[ Nate smiles into that kiss, his body gently pressing against Nick's while his hands slide over his back. He wouldn't say he's generally rough with Nick, unless they're aiming for that, but right now he's being especially soft. His hands push gently under his t-shirt, easing it up before he breaks from their kiss to pull it over his head. ]

Usually I'd spell my hands for this, but...

[ He dips his head, brushing healing kisses over Nick's throat. ]

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I like it better like this.

[ it's not really about the healing, after all. nick will be back up to his usual function sooner rather than later, he could have dealt with the after effects of the party then. he'd already worn himself ragged dealing with the worst of the injuries, everything left behind on him now could wait--but that's not really why he's here.

nate's lips are gentle on his throat and nick's eyes flutter shut at the soft touch. a million miles away from harsh fingers digging marks into his neck. he reaches up, touches his fingers to the back of nate's head, threads his fingers gently through nate's hair. ]

I love you, you know. So much.

[guylining]

[ His hands are careful as they ease Nick back into the pillows, giving himself space to work on his chest. More bruises, more marks. Nate's lips brush kisses across them, sweet and soft, each one soothing and healing the skin it leaves behind.

He looks up, feeling hands in his hair. His face is flushed, his gaze warm, and he smiles again. ]

I do know.

[ He leans in, nose nudging Nick's jaw. ]

I can feel it. I can always feel it, right here.

[ His fingers brush across the skull scar on Nick's chest. He gently eases his legs apart to kneel between them, and works his way down again, kissing every bruise on Nick's stomach, down into the curve towards his groin, and then over his hips. He's gently easing Nick's pants down at the same time. ]

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I always want you to feel it. Sometimes I don't know what to do with all the love I have for you, Nate. It just feels so big.

[ it's a privilege of a problem to have, and one nick wouldn't ever want to be without. it's a simple constant, nick loves nate, for so long that he can't remember what it was like to not love him anymore. there surely was a time, somewhere in that little window between meeting nate and deciding that he was nick's person, but it couldn't have been for long.

all he remembers now is this —the warmth he feels when he's with him, that love echoed right back, as fierce and big as his own. nate's hands find nick's waistband and he lifts his hips to make easing the sweats off go a little smoother, and even that feels like love. nate's lips brush over dark bruises bitten into his hips, and nick opens his eyes, tilts his head to watch. ]

You're the first thing I feel when I wake up, and the last thing before I go to sleep.

[guylining]

[ There's bruises, teeth marks. Nate can see the map of how Nick was used, he can imagine how many hands and mouths and bodies it must have been. He kisses them all away, and then his hands are petting across smooth soft skin and tracing the lines of Nick's tattoos. ]

I know.

When I woke up, from my coma? You were the first thing I felt. When everything was weird and nothing made sense, you made sense.

[ Thanks to that same coma, Nate remembers exactly what it was like to exist every day and not have Nick running through his veins. He knows he wouldn't change this for the world.

He climbs back up Nick's body to press against him, to let their bodies slot in against each other. He slips his arms around him, a gentle hold. ]

I don't think I make sense without you.