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why not

[angrycowboy]

You know what happens in there.

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thats not a reason to not come see you

[angrycowboy]

Yeah, it is. Cause I'm supposed to take care of you. That doesn't involve you seeing me like that.

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i know what the zoo looks like michael

[angrycowboy]

Yeah, I'm aware. Doesn't mean you need to see me in it.

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if its up to me i do

what were you fighting guards over?

[angrycowboy]

I saw them hassling someone, and lost it. Not my proudest moment, took me back a few years.

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guards are always hassling someone. how come today you fought one over it?

[angrycowboy]

Because today I needed something to lose it on.

It got to be too much. I slipped into habits that should be gone.

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old habits are kind of hard to kick

you think it helped?

[angrycowboy]

Right in that moment? Sure it did. Not so much now. Drugs only help while you're high, don't they?

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i'd say the trick is to not sober up but i think thats bad advice on either side of the metaphor

[angrycowboy]

For both of us. And it doesn't really work in a fight.

I know it was stupid. This isn't the person I want to be anymore and I'm sorry, Nick. I just don't want it to hurt you.

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michael
i drank like 4 bottles of wine one night last week for no reason. i don't even like wine.

i get it, okay? you dont have to apologise to me

[angrycowboy]

Yeah I do.

4 in one night?

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it was a weird night

until you're swinging punches at me because you're in a mood, i don't need an apology. i'm serious. you think i don't understand what a heat of the moment decision looks like? i get it. i really do.

[angrycowboy]

Yeah I guess you do.

I'm gonna go get this over with.

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i still want to come see you

[angrycowboy]

You want to see me naked in a sell waiting to be bought?

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i want to see you

the circumstance is gross but
still

[angrycowboy]

I just don't think you need to do that to yourself

I don't want to be the one doing that to you. Putting that memory in your head.

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man on the list of shitty things that have happened to me here idk if the zoo even makes the top ten

if i let you go three days without seeing me i'll have too much to tell you all in one go when you're out, right?

[angrycowboy]

You know you're damned stubborn.