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yeah i think there's a time and a place for going hard on limits and its probably not
in this kind of a situation
but ok yeah i can agree to all of that. i trust you, you know. i know if you're looking out then its all going to be fine. you probably have a better idea of what's too much for me than i have, tbh.

( october is far away and he could absolutely leave it there. there's plenty on this topic that they can talk about that's far more distracting and interesting than the guest list.

but. it's something nick has been chewing on for a whole, and now that the (slightly unexpected) opportunity has kind of come up, nick's sticking on it more than he thought he would be. )

its not like
it doesnt matter if u guys dont get along i dont need u to become best friends or anything stupid like that
ragnor fucking hates him + we're still copacetic
but like
i'd be lying if i tried to act like i'm totally chill w everyone and their dog being tense and weird about him
does that make sense?

I want it to be a good time for you, and not one where you get hurt or disturbing for others.
Also, the end of the night? I take you home. I take care of you afterwards. That is my place and no one else's.

Thank you, Nick. Just know I am always going to do whatever I can to take care of you.

It makes sense, Nick. I get it. I don't know if I can promise anything but I'll do what I can.
I'll reach out, and you know I'm not judging him by what happened that day.
No more than I would want anyone to judge me by my video either. I do get that.
Though I would ask if there's more reasons to be upset than the video.

[ If Ragnor hated him, was there a reason? ]

just me and you at the end of the night, i like that. i dont think i'd wanna be with anyone else after a workout like that if it goes even half as well as i'd like haha
besides, i think youll deserve something a lil special at the end of it all, if ur gonna watch so patiently
im sure we can figure out a reward that fits how well u do

he hasnt done anything wrong. i think just
i dont know
i guess its hard for people to see why we wanna fuck around still
and its easier to blame him for being "irresponsible" ig than it is to understand it
ragnor just found out in a really bad way, thats why all that shit blew up the way it did ( ....sort of ) it wasnt like, yknow. how i told u

good because that is really nonnegotiable. I want you to have what you want and need, Nick, but I also have to be able to take care of you at the end of the night.

As for what I deserve at the end of the night? We'll discuss it then. Based on how you feel and how you're doing. okay? I don't want you pushing yourself. In the end, you're my boyfriend. I know you'll be there after that.

I'm going to say this as someone that didn't have to see the worst, okay? But just given what I know, I can imagine why some might be worried for you. I can see why they want to blame someone else for you being hurt.

I can't imagine how I would feel if I'd seen it, but I can imagine there are things I've been through that I've kept from everyone. Even you and Mikey. Things I know you would be upset about, so I can get why some want someone to blame.

I will get to know him though, okay? Open that door so that I know him, not what this place had done to him.

[ He wants to hope what he finds is a better man than he thinks either Nick or Michael would find Elijah. Which is why he's trying his best to go into this with open eyes. For Nick, and to be sure this isn't Nick being blind as Kyle had been. Not from the video but in general. ]

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