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[ Nate feels the emotion of it weighing on him. People are too easily lost, and thus far, very difficult to get back. Alongside the loss of Nick Scratch is the fear that the others he still has will be lost in the same way. Stephen, Caleb, Anna. This Nick. Cy and Crais. People whose loss Nate thinks might break him. Again.

He doesn't, personally, have time to wonder if something's going too fast or getting too serious. When your time is so clearly borrowed, you have to make the most of it. He's absolutely certain of that.

He hugs Nick so tightly he can barely breathe. ]

I know. I know you do, babe. So, what're you still doing talking to me?

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Oh my God.

( when nick laughs this time it's quick like before. a little wetter, like maybe he's flirting with the idea of crying still, and a lot more relieved. one conversation is hardly a fix for everything he's tried to tear apart in a few short weeks, but it really feels like a step in the right direction. )

I'm going, Jesus. ( actually he hasn't let go of nate at all. ) I need to like, figure out what the hell I'm going to say. And sleep, it's been like three days. I need to do this right.

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[ Nate leans back enough to put a kiss on Nick's cheek. Then his hand runs through his hair, and he nods. ]

And maybe, at least think about talking to Ragnor? It's not...

[ He pauses, presses his lips together. This one isn't so simple, in Nate's mind. Nick had clearly done wrong, to Kyle. It's not so clear cut with Ragnor. Nate doesn't think he should've judged him. Nor does he think it was really right for Ragnor to expect to know everything about his relationships, anyway. ]

I don't think he should be your therapist, mate. I don't think he's qualified or objective, and honestly, speaking as someone who goes to therapy, I think you need someone who is. I'd recommend Harls, but it's your call.

Ragnor does care about you, though. I think you should have boundaries with him, but I think you should make up with him. I do get why that whole mess upset you. It would've upset me too.