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@nate

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hey do you have a second?

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is it a fun second or a put down my sandwich + focus second
i always have several seconds for u i just wanna get my energy right

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no you can eat

i just wanted
ok

you said before that i was going too fast with thorn
do you still think so

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i dont think i said too fast just
fast

i dont know do you think its too fast?

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i think i'm not the best judge when it comes to him, i have big rosy 'i want to be with you all the time' glasses

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you have to remember like
my only context for this guy is you telling me he tortured you for somewhere between like 1 and a billion years and then like a week later you said it was actually fine so like

i dont know what too fast is in this scenario

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i mean
he did
sort of
he wasn't the same person he is now when he did that. it was like he had no soul then, and now he does

the person i fell in love with WAS that soul
and now he's kind of both but kind of something new, too

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he's not not that person, either

i'm probably always going to worry about this. like, i dont think thats news but i might as well say it. but i mean i trust that youre not going to take stupid risks and that youd say something if something seemed off so like

its probably not too fast. just, yknow
fast

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i want to contract with him

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thats not surprising

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do you think it's a bad idea

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i think

i think its not a bad idea

but youre placing a lot of faith in a person that you think youve known forever but have actually only known as they are for like a month and im not ever going to ask you not to do anything but i would really appreciate it not being a permanent one any time soon if thats something youd take into consideration

thats what i think

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i'm honestly not really sure that i would enter a permanent one ever again
at least right now
i was in one with anna and it didn't stop her being taken twice
and i was in one with stephen day and you know what happened there. it's fake, that permanence.

so
like yeah. we could evaluate every 3 months
make sure everything still feels like it does now

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ok
then i dont think its a bad idea

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okay


i know you're worried.

the thorn i knew in hell had a kind of innocence to him that's gone now
he'll never be exactly that person again
when i'm with him i still see that person and it makes me never want to be away from him. i know he's the demon too, though
and i know the demon has the same hungers he always did.
thorn believes he can keep that in check, that he's balanced in himself

so far that seems to be true

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is there a plan
for if he ever ends up not balanced in himself

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caliban had a binding ritual

it would've worked, i think, but we stopped because it was hurting him and it didn't feel right

but
if something broke and he became ineroth again, then. hurting him would be the least of my worries.

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are you sure you could actually do it, if you had to?

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i think the real thorn would want me to

i'm not going to let him hurt me or anyone that i love. he would come for all of us if he were ineroth again
that's what would be on the line

so yes. i could do it.

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i dont want you to get hurt
like thats all i care about, really

as long as you're happy, and you're being careful where you need to be, you know i'm behind you. whatever it is

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i want to be careful

i just don't want that to mean not being with him
and i don't want him to contract with anyone else like i want him

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i didnt say dont be with him, i said where you need to be
if you have a plan, if people know what to look out for, if theres ways for people to protect themselves if they have to, thats careful

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the demon in him

he's not particularly sly, his main trait is hungry
if he were free he would be killing people here
he'd be attacking them, taking their souls

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if he's different now, the demon might be too

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that's true

but i mean then even i wouldn't know what to look for not really