[ nick is determined not to cry, because despite very much not being a crier he's doing an awful lot of it lately, and also because it's just a very embarrassing affair in general. it's just a hard thing to fight, when he's already so cracked open--fragile, really, even if the thought makes his skin crawl--and someone is trying so very hard to show just how much he sees nick.
somewhere along the way there's a hiccupping sort of sound, a shuddering sort of breath. his chest aches with the effort of holding back that flood, and for nothing because his face ends up wet with tears anyway. he's too raw, and chris is being too kind, for it to end any other way. ]
Long list. [ it's a weak sort of attempt at a joke, but an attempt nonetheless. ] You're nicer to me than I deserve, Chris.
no subject
somewhere along the way there's a hiccupping sort of sound, a shuddering sort of breath. his chest aches with the effort of holding back that flood, and for nothing because his face ends up wet with tears anyway. he's too raw, and chris is being too kind, for it to end any other way. ]
Long list. [ it's a weak sort of attempt at a joke, but an attempt nonetheless. ] You're nicer to me than I deserve, Chris.